Second Semester Life Update

I know it's only been two weeks, but so much has happened.

Let's start from the very beginning, a very good place to start. I returned from a strestful break (that stressful mixed with restful... because I spent WAY too much time relaxing and watching Gilmore Girls and then I freaked out about how much productivity I missed out on) and started classes. For those of you who don't know, I am adding a double major in Instrumental Music Education next year, but I am starting classes this semester so as not to fall behind. That means my class responsibilities this semester are as follows: Music Theory, Aural Skills, Choir, Composition Lessons, Composition Seminar, Piano Lessons, and a Humanities Elective (Intro to Debate), AS WELL AS Women's Chorus, Voice Methods, Trumpet Methods, Percussion Methods, and a Music Ed Seminar. 

On top of my multitude of classes, I'm co-music directing Next to Normal at UR River Campus, which I'm SO excited about. Our cast is so talented, my co-music director is amazing, and our director is brilliant. So shoutout to them. I'm also accompanying a new music written by one of my colleagues in the composition department, so that should be a lot of fun too!

As if that wasn't enough, I joined an A Cappella group last week. After Hours A Cappella is made up of mostly University of Rochester students with a few Eastman students as well. The group members already feel like a second family to me, even after just three rehearsals. We're currently busy preparing for Valentine's Day Serenades. 

SO. Since I'm singing in two choirs, an A Cappella group, and singing to teach parts in Next to Normal rehearsal, I decided to add YET ANOTHER time commitment to my life; I'm taking voice lessons from a Vocal Pedagogy student so I can learn how to sing without damaging my voice.

AND. For the next 4 Fridays I will be volunteering as part of the Eastman Orientation Crew helping auditioning students and parents find where they're supposed to be, etc.. 

I joked with a friend the other day that I'm "300% busy", and I don't think he realized the accuracy of my statement until it took me almost a week to respond to a text message... So now that you're all caught up on what I'm doing, here's how I'm feeling about it: Super conflicted. Anyone who knows me knows that I am often accused of "spreading myself too thin." And in the past, maybe it's been true. But I've been able to manage it. This semester, for the first time in my life, I'm not sure how I'm going to manage everything. But I feel like I owe it to my past, present, and future selves to at least try.

Imagine the top 20 things on your bucket list. What if I told you that you got to do all of them... in the span of one week? You'd be SO excited, even though your schedule would be absolutely crazy. The problem with me is that I care about all of my endeavors way too much, so much so that I can't even imagine letting one of them go. There is never a time in my day when I think to myself, "Ugh, I really don't want to be here." So that makes it hard. 

But I've also started caring a whole lot more about my mental health. I've learned that I need time for myself, time to think, time to just play piano and not have to be practicing. And for that reason, I'm pretty nervous to be walking into this incredibly busy semester. 

So why am I doing it? Why not drop something? Because if I can actually pull this off, I will have learned SO MUCH in the end. This semester, I'll get to perform, to explore, to help, to grow, to learn about myself, music, composition, music education, musical theatre. Everything I love. And in the meantime, I just keep telling myself I can sleep when I'm dead.

Have a wonderful day :)